Same for You

Matt and I both do our daily bible reading each morning before the kids get up. I love it b/c it allows us time being renewed by Jesus, but also time to talk without interruptions.

This morning we were discussing heading home to IN. And we were saying that we wonder if we are both just gonna crash. He complimented me in that he told me that through a very tough year, I have maintained a positive, strong attitude. He then proceeded to remind me what my year has been like and as he did, I held back tears.

In March Matt moved to AZ and I stayed back with three kids.
We put the house up for sale and I kept it up for showings.
I packed 80% of the house w/o him.
I handled the moving truck day w/o him.
I then moved in to my bestie's house for three weeks, w/ the kids, but w/o Matt.
We then moved across the country and we unpacked.
I had to make all new friends.
Within 5 months we were starting to get the impression that AZ wasn't long term.
I had to keep the emotions of another move to myself; w/o letting AZ friends and co-workers in on it.
We put our second house in a year up for sale.
Now we are packing again.

Call me E-X-H-A-U-S-T-E-D.

YET... I continue to praise my God. And I can tell you that I, at times, experience such a JOY from within that I want to do a little dance.

Only Jesus can do that.

I told Matt that I don't know how people do life w/o Jesus' spirit. Really, I don't. He said that's why there are so many addictions.

I'm not blogging this to bring me pity or words of affirmation. I am sharing b/c as I was making Christmas cookies for our kids, so that they have something that resembles a normal Christmas season around our house, I was filled with such JOY, and I heard Jesus spirit whisper, "tell them."

I am not above exhaustion. I am not above a foul attitude. I am not above fear or worry. I am not better than anyone else b/c I experience JOY on a regular basis. But I will tell you that Jesus inside me makes the JOY possible and ANYONE can have Him. ANYONE. There is not one person secluded from that. If you want Him, You can have Him.

Immanuel...God W-I-T-H us.

[For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that WHOEVER believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16]